Monotony. That word pretty much sums up what I’m feeling, thinking and experiencing in my daily life. What was once a boon in where I could lackadaisically go about my day-to-day business without much care has become a double-edged sword which has cut quite deep.

Okay, methaphors aside, I’m pretty much bored. This isn’t new, as there’s not much that can hold my attention and interest for longer than a few minutes (adult ADHD?). However it has reached a crux where I’m starting to act and do things about it, it’s all very tentative at the moment so I’ll clarify everything in a future post (some already know what I’m referring to).

I really enjoy gym. I also really enjoy cycling. But above all I enjoy riding. This has of course been denied to me for the last 19 months or so as a result of my accident. After having a really bad experience in getting everything sorted out and losing a large chunk of money in the process I quite simply couldn’t afford to just get back on the horse so to speak. In the end I just cut my losses, discarded the whole issue and reinforced my cynic attitude. Absolutely.

The boredom mainly stems from my current line of employment. It takes up a large chunk of my time obviously. The problem is I don’t enjoy it a single bit, and the situation isn’t likely to improve. I originally wanted to specialise in Java development but that got thrown to the wayside in favour of C++; per my employers instructions of course. My “holding” contract expires at the end of April, so hopefully more things will change there.

I apologise to the poor souls who struggled to read through this rather vague, abbreviated and poorly structured entry — it really didn’t turn out quite as I had envisioned.